tonight
was a good night. :)
calculation
dizzy when we talk so fast.
sigh, why do i feel like i’m already losing my best friend?
i hate girlfriends and boyfriends. :(
just one of my many photos. i can’t decide if i’m going to put them all up or not. HM.
xox
z
edit: i know you love my hair. don’t even deny it. lmfao.
edit 2: yes that’s a portrait of me in the bg. no i didn’t do it. yes this is my room at home. not my apt.
brownies.
i’m about to jizz myself. currently.. in my hands.. is a 1960 brownie camera. with flash. and film. that’s only been in my family. i’m in love.
p.s. it has the instruction manual still.. in the original box.
JIZZ.
xox
z
omnomomonom.
dp.. (oh it stands for many things, hahaha.)
i’m trying to figure out if it’d be appropriate to send you a daft punk song.. that describes me.. you, us to a t.
a sign please?
xox
z
“ hello seattle. i am a mountaineer.
owl city
what the fuck.
okay, when dating a 16 year old, you probably should also be 16 or at least in highschool. i’m not saying who it is or what or why, except that someone is a fucking stupid shit for doing this. every time i look at her profile i EXPLODE. it now even has a little blurb about him. look, i know i honestly shouldn’t care. but he’s my BEST friend, and at this point my only friend of more than a year that i care about. i’m fucking disgusted. what was he thinking? how can he consider it love when there’s some kind of morbid controlling aspect to it?
he’s literally going to mold her to fit what he wants. how is that moral? he’s 21, and she’s 16. .. do i need to count the years, the months, the days of difference? it’d be one thing if she was 20 and he was 25. guess what, that’s not how it is. she’s young, immature, naive.. ESPECIALLY naive. i’m not trying to be conceited but my ONE conversation with her has changed her mind about some things. or at least how she reacts about some things.
look, i’m not trying to be better than anyone, but jesus fucking christ. i know i make bad choices with guys, and i can tell you that every single person i’ve ever fallen for has been a piece of shit. but none of them have been seriously young enough to be raping. RAPE. ahem, AHEM. RAPE. look, i’d rather fuck up with someone my own age than with someone who is 16. what if you piss off the parents? so what if they fucking like you right now. one fucking wrong move and they could turn around and charge your ass with underage rape/sexual whatever.
and to you, the reason for this rant. YOU OF ALL PEOPLE know how against this i am. how in the world could you come to me and ask for advice? my OWN brother did this shit, and there was only 1 more year added to your age difference. it’s fucking sick. the only difference is, he got charged with rape, and you haven’t yet.
at this point, i would be willing to sacrifice a little bit of our friendship just so you see through your blinded-by-love BULLSHIT.
wake the fuck up, because HE’s fucking disgusting. right when i feel like i can feel comfortable around him once more. whatever. i’m done.
just a thought:
5 years, or 60 months, or 1825 days.
xox
z
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